Inside Madness

June 14 2011

2011-06-14T12:14:00.002+08:00

Been awhile, things are not that good with wife.
fallen for a korean girl, Boim

she broke my heart. things happen , kissed and stuffs
long story short. she hurt me , causing me to hurt others

recontract with twin ... 40 years old with we are both single ...
yeah , maybe , perhaps

after all , she is one of the few who truly knows me.

am i being simple ? or am i being a fool ?

work wise, i hate my work ... but the pay is good.( 4k plus plus)

how am i to stop ?

idk , my life is in a mess...

till later

JLY

p.s - will blog more , promise

april 13th 2011

2011-04-13T14:02:00.000+08:00

My explaination

As mentioned in our conversation, I am easily overwhelmed by emotions
I now understand your hesitations. For my words had been misspoken
I’ve always been a romantic, sometimes I ponder too much
At times I’ve been mistaken, and things became like such

All I could say, is that I am not your typical guy
I’m not trying to get in your pants, and this is not a lie
I think that you are intelligent and perhaps too good to be real
I’ll swear to god (if I believe in one), this is how I feel

I see a beautifully intelligent mind and an open caring heart
This is not a romantic pursuit, so don’t tear this friendship apart
If this is a pursuit, it is more of a pursuit of the mind
Take time and talk to me, you'll be surprised what you find

I write poems for you, it’s because I’m good with words
It’s like fishes to the sea and Skies to the Birds
I write poems a lot, for they are made in my head
The words of my choice and things I dare not said

Each word has its meaning, its own story to be told
Magical words if spoken properly can turn stone into gold
So many words I could use, so many words I could bend
My choice of words is simple: will you still be my friend?

09 March 2011

2011-03-09T14:29:00.002+08:00

First post in the year.

Working in hyundai engineering for the last past mths.

I was not in the mood to blog , till I read what i had blog in the past.

so much memories, so much pleasures, so much pain.

I'm a jerk for this while when I'm gone
There is this constant urge to flirt around.
It's life my brain has gone haywire out of the blue.

anyways, I was reading bout 2005. the girls i loved, the poems i've wrote.
Debbie , not in contact with her now. I remember her as a blur queen. good girl
Chua li ping , not in contact as well . Heard she is now a flight attendent. singapore airlines

valerie mei qi, not in contacts as well. dunno how she is

well , people come and people go , but those ae some of the better ones that came in my life.
I think i had change too.
Debbie got drunk and slept on my bed in 2005 without me touching her.
if given the same situation , i doubt i'll be the gentlemen

23th Dec 2010

2010-12-23T16:23:00.000+08:00

“I’m not going to do anything that is meaningless”. That Statement seems like a valid and strong New Year resolution for 2011. so the first question that comes to mind is “ Does World of Warcraft gives me any meaning ?” Should I carry on with the game?

I know the damages WoW addiction has costs me. I’m drifting further and further away from my friends, my family and I think about it when I’m working.

And yet, The answer is yes. There is a sense of belonging within Wow. It makes me happy. It may seems crazy with all the Orcs , Troll , Elfs running around .. but It sure is more sane the real world.

We got a crazy North Korea whom wields Nuclear power and seems to be war happy.
We had food crisis going round the globe. In WOW , a mage can summon Food and Drinks for everyone.

Jobs are not so complex and difficult Just know your role and play your part.
If you’re a healer, you heal.
If you’re a DPS (damage per second) dealer, you burn the DPS meter. (Just watch your Argo)
If you’re a tank, just ensure you’re holding on Argos. And be in the right stances

In short, I’ll keep playing WoW to escape reality.

Regard
JLY

19th Nov 2010

2010-11-19T15:20:00.002+08:00

Been awhile again,

Not getting the blogging sprit . so many things to say / update

let's start with work

Left YS awhile ago, reason = i was working 8 to 8 , mondays to sundays non stop.
94hrs per week. freaking tired and totally no life. plus no time for World of warcraft.

Join Hyundai from 8 Nov 2010. so far so good

guess I am okay now. not feeling happy / not feeling sad.

Life goes on ...

oh , Ah Ma passed away on the 31th Oct. May she rest in peace.

Brought over her old apartment to which I still had not settle on the paperworks yet.

Feels like drinking every now and then , yet hardly gets the chance.

till next time ,
JLY

16th oct 2010

2010-10-16T19:53:00.002+08:00

@elvapris May you both be favored with the future of your choice, May you live to see a thousand reasons to rejoice!

Twinnie , Really wish you all the best. 要好好在一起。
everything have to give and take . It's not easy to merge two lifes together, so be patient.
. Once again I wish you both will have a wonderful life together

Best wishes ,
JLY

16th June 2010

2010-06-16T22:26:00.002+08:00

A weird day indeed , I got shouted at ... By a close friend , for being me

I understand that she is trying to protect a friend , but shouting at me ?

That hurts ... Badly .

Her point is I should not corrupt leon , with ideas of smoking
yet , I'm just being me . I speak on what I believe Is the truth. .

Leon did ask me my thoughts on smoking ...

Regardless , I don't like to be shouted at ...

Pity , cos we had such good laughs ...

I understand where she is coming from .... But

Haiz , I feel I don't deserve this ...

Oh well , life goes on right ?

Things back to normal ? I hope so .

Idk , I am confused after being shouted at .

How do I say this ? She's one of my closest friend .
And yet she does not know me . Maybe noone does ..

Twinnie knows me well right ? I hope so .

Life goes on ... It has too ..
Things will be back to normal . As they should be ...

Once bitten twice shy ,
JLY

4th June 2010

2010-06-04T09:49:00.002+08:00

Tian an men Square massacre of 1989 .
China declares martial law, enabling them to use force of arms against protesting students to end the Tiananmen Square protests. lots of student died under tanks and rain of bullets.

I think lots of people had forgotten bout it, or simply can't care enough ...

There's my tribute to that day. to all the students whom had died

The old will not oppress the young forever ..

JLY

26th May 2010

2010-05-26T14:48:00.002+08:00

Happy Birthday In Advance to Twinne

this is the second time I'm reposting this. the first time the com crash .
So this will be short

Just to say I'm Having a streak of unluckiness .

20th May - got wayyy drunk and fought with a cab driver . he started it
21th May - Medical report and police report.
22th May -had Salad for dinner ( Salad is NOT food, It come WITH food)
23th May - Turns out the salad is spoiled ,got food poisoning
24th May - Weiliang posted photos of me 13 years ago. I'm thrill and disgusted
25th May - waited 4 hours for Lunch ... to no avail

I'm bored and tired .

And yet I told myself I'm gonna quit drinking.

Oh , lots of wedding to attend in very near future ,

Alcohol free,

JLY

17th May 2010

2010-05-17T09:15:00.002+08:00

I'm blogging when I should be working.
This is bad ... Why ? =)

My mind's Fucked up these few days.
Kept wanting things that don't belong/ Can't belong to me.

Desire , lust , the yearning

It's like an itch you cannot scratch. you wanna ignore it , but it's really making you jumpy.

gosh, I hate writing in codes. but I do love that you are reading this =)

I should really talk to self soon. before i do something stupid ... yet again .

Cya soon ,

JLY

May 14th 2010

2010-05-14T16:28:00.002+08:00

I think I'm in trouble.

Can't detach myself soon enough.

Became a daily part of life. Damn it !! Let me DOWN !!

Don't wanna fly no more ... I wanna walk this world.

Guess it's all "My" fault.

haiz ...

HAIS ....

7th may 2010

2010-05-07T08:41:00.000+08:00

In NUH , working . Under resourse piling

Found a gd song

歌名：笑红尘
歌手：蔡秋凤
专辑：笑红尘

风哪吹心就畏寒
红尘路上只有孤单
叹一声稀微心晟
有谁人知影
谁人愿意这无伴
来过着流浪生活
爱艰苦心痛无爱好命
谁人愿意这孤单像风筝打断线
就随风飘零糟蹋性命
笑一声不是快活
阮笑红尘红尘笑我
music
风哪吹心就畏寒
红尘路上只有孤单
叹一声稀微心晟
有谁人知影
谁人愿意这无伴
来过着流浪生活
爱艰苦心痛无爱好命
谁人愿意这孤单像风筝打断线
就随风飘零糟蹋性命
笑一声不是快活
阮笑红尘红尘笑我
谁人愿意这无伴
来过着流浪生活
爱艰苦心痛无爱好命
谁人愿意这孤单像风筝打断线
就随风飘零糟蹋性命
笑一声不是快活
阮笑红尘红尘笑我
music
end

JLY

30th April 2009

2010-04-30T11:42:00.003+08:00

Seems like I 'm dependent . But i'm good in detaching myself . Gonna U - turn for awhile .
Not gonna quit you . Just gonna keep a distance .

I am unhappy . I lives too many lies . I wanna take my masks off .

"never a honest word , but that was when I rule the world "

Love,
JLY

13th April 2010

2010-04-14T14:50:00.002+08:00

This entry is done while in a meeting ,
so much had happened these days .

Seems like I'm losing friends. Don't know what happen
hates my job . Really job . The lies are overwhelming .
Don't know how long more I can endure .

Got a thinking to be a cabin crew . Or at least start something with my life

my idol , Alexender the great , took the world by 29.

What can I do with my life now ? Is my time here ?

What does the muses have in stored for me .

Bless me one more time

JLY

30th March 2010

2010-03-30T12:59:00.001+08:00

Praying for a better tomorrow .

18th January 2010

2010-01-18T13:00:00.002+08:00

Well, been having weird dreams lately.

What esle can I update ? My life is kinda boring.

I work in the day, Play WOW at night.
No social life.

The thing is , I truly enjoy playing WOW, watching youtube, reading mangas online.

I truly do.

if that makes me happy, why should I change ?

Cheers,
JLY

04 01 2010

2010-01-04T14:52:00.004+08:00

A new year.

had so many resolutions...

Let's list them down

1) For the Horde , To PVP more often just to kill the alliaces
2) Heathly diet , Cutting down on fatty food and salt
3) Sleep , Will do my best to sleep as much as possible

Those are the current plans i have so far ...

regards,

Lewis

27th Dec 2009

2009-12-28T15:48:00.002+08:00

You know your life sucks when the only time you are truely happy is when you are wining in world of warcraft's battle ground. (and that don't happens all the time)

Xmas is over, did nothing to remember it by.

there is a strong feeling of sadness that engulf me at this moment.
for reasons unknown to me. FML

FML = Fuck my life

There is a need to connect with others..
but then again... I don't really need others

FFS , it's hard to stay awesome all the time.
FFS = For fuck sake.

How much more sorrow my heart can take ?
perhaps I'll sleep and do not wake...
Please don't FML , FFS ...

ARRGGHH,
JLY

23rd Dec 2009

2009-12-23T08:52:00.002+08:00

the eve of xmas' eve.

I should be thrill, but i'm not

Just feels that, this is a BIG marketing scheme to make me part my cash.

why is xmas any special?

I just wanna get year 2009 over with.

"My dream"+thoughts

Angel of death is untouchable. I feels as if IDK her.

well, I might let the angel fly away..

walk see walk see ...

btw, I don't make sense, maybe twinne understand. but she don't make senses too.

So if i don't see you on xmas eve or new year's eve ?

Merry xmas and a happy new year.

17th Dec 2009

2009-12-17T09:58:00.002+08:00

hurry up and end the year !!!
Guess you could tell I not having the time of my life
social life is breaking down . work stress , studies and stuff
so , i'm going to rant my feelings
(press the x button on the upper right hand side to escape)

Social life
Gosh , where to even begain?
The older i get , it seems the less friends I have.
friends as in people i know they will stand by me.
perhaps I'm not a socialable guy. perhaps it's their fault.
look , it's simple. I am what i am.
I work 5 days and a half day per week
I perfer to play world of warcraft , or surf youtube or read a book
I don't club and I don't like crowded places
I have a weird sense of humor.
as i had mention in my early entries.
I am insane , or the world has gone crazy ?

I just sometimes think i'm diffrent from others

Work
Work work work , rotating between West coast and airport.
have to PR with people.
PR is something I excel in , but it's not something i truly enjoy.
I lie alot in my line of work.
hmm ... that is bad , why ?

studies
feels i'm too old to study , or i'm too smart.
the class is super draggy. even the simplest question has to be answered again and again. feels like i can ace the class with studying.
but pride come before a fall. so i'll study harder, to ace all the test
(Just to make them look bad)

Stuff
( If you are still reading , you might wanna skip this part, cos it's heavly coded)
even the best actor need a break. tired after the long shoots. smiling at fools.
Trying to make everyone like me. I don't hate you.but that does not mean I like you.
Angel of death, sweet and charming,seems it's hard to escape.
torn into two ( or more). bleeding hard.
have to surive my encouters.
I'm just like a pupet. seems like there is always someone controlling my strings.

kill myself ? should I ? would I ? may I ? will I ? shall I ?
Nah ...
I'm looking for an escape. a route out.
if my life is a game ? I'll restart it.

plans for the future?
I just trying to survive ...

smiling faces with hidden blades.

If only I could bankai. I'll slay them all

Slay them all !!!!

sometimes when i go to sleep , i wish i'll not wake up the next day.
but when i do , i remember I'm awesome, and so , I'm okay

DO>NOT>CARE>
JLY

10th Nov 2009

2009-11-10T11:36:00.002+08:00

the Rosso twins ... can go far in the showbiz industry.

a Chinese song that keeps playing in my head

想着拿着一种月色笑成一弯
傻傻望了你一晚怎黱看都不觉烦
爱自己不到一半心都在你身上
只要能让你快乐我可以拿一切来换
这世上你最好看眼神最让我心安
只有你跟我有关其他的我都不管
全世界你最温暖肩膀最让我心安
没有你我怎黱办答应我别再分散
这样恋著多喜欢没有你我不太习惯
这样恋著多喜欢没有你我多黱孤单
没有你我怎黱办(没有你我怎黱办)
答应我别再分散
男:星辰闹成了一串月色笑成了一弯
傻傻望了你一晚怎黱看都不烦
爱自己就一半心都在你身上沾
只要能让你快乐我什么事都不添乱

JLY

9th November 2009

2009-11-09T11:19:00.002+08:00

Same old same old.

still playing World of warcraft. realized that once you hit level 80 , you got tons of stuff to do for better gears.

social life is almost to an halt.

Everything is fine ba ... i think ..
or i'm too lazy to think or be bothered .

Life goes on ...

JLY

20th Oct 2009

2009-10-20T11:10:00.002+08:00

Tuesday ... World of Warcraft is down ... sever restart.

So I would like to explain WOW lingo here .

LFG = Looking for group
LFM = Looking for more
WTB = Wants to buy
WTS = Wants to sell
WTT = wants to trade
GTG = Good to go
MT = main tank
OT = off tank
DPS = damage per second
AOE = Area of effect
PVP = player vs player
PVE = player vs environment
RP = Role play
AFK = Away from keyboard
DND = Do not disturd
OMW = on my way
H = Heroic
AH = Auction house
BG = battle ground

that's all i can think of .

Regards,
a level 80 Horde DK

15th Oct 2009

2009-10-15T12:12:00.002+08:00

Not much has changed ..
stuck in Wartsila...
Hope I could get a transfer out.

Playing World of warcraft daily
deside Tuesday cos it's maintenance day ..

What can I say .. It's an addictive game.
I even start to dream about it.
Blood elf death Knight. still gearing(Looking for better equipments)
Hopefully I could start Raiding soon

maybe when the expansion is out , I will reroll a troll druid and a Tauren paladin.

What game you play ?
JLY

5th Oct 2009

2009-10-05T14:29:00.001+08:00

Been awhile since the last entry
not much mood for anything. or rather busy with world of warcraft.
Hit level 80 on my death knight. that's when the real game begins.

Working relations seems weird in N2C12. folks here are no longer that friendly.
not my fault.

found a video that makes me happy.

pretty and it's a NELF dance

that's all for now

see ya ,

JLY

22th Sep 2009

2009-09-22T10:23:00.001+08:00

3 days of pure World of Warcraft.

Hit level 78 on my DK. 4levels since the weekend.

nothing much to blog about ...

I rather play WOW then socialize with fools ...

Found a quote from battle grounds in the game

" Alliance scums !! My life for the Horde !!"

For the Horde !
JLY

2009-09-15T12:50:00.002+08:00

another song from the past

Last kiss by Wayne Cochran & the C.C. Riders

Where, oh where, can my baby be?
the lord took her away from Me.
She's gone to heaven, so Ive got to be good.
so I can see my baby when I leave this world.

We were out on a date in my daddy's car.
we hadn't driven very far.
there in the road, straight ahead.
a car was stalled, the engine was dead.

I couldn't stop, so I swerved to the right.
Ill never forget the sound that night.
the screaming tires, the busting glass.
the painful scream that I heard last.

Oh where, oh where, can my baby be?
the lord took her away from me.
shes' gone to heaven, so Ive got to be good.
so I can see my baby when I leave this world.

When I woke up the rain was pouring down.
there were people standin all around.
Something warm flowing through my eyes.
but somehow I found my baby that night.
I lifted her head, she looked at me and said.
" hold me darling, just a little while."
I held her close, I kissed her our last kiss.
I found the love that i knew I had missed.

Well now shes gone.
even though I hold her tight.
I lost my love, my life, That night.

Touched by this song ...
JLY

12th Sep 2009

2009-09-12T09:41:00.000+08:00

Another song form the past

Skip, skip, skip to my Lou,
Skip, skip, skip to my Lou,
Skip, skip, skip to my Lou,
Skip to my Lou, my darlin'.
Fly's in the buttermilk,
Shoo, fly, shoo,
Fly's in the buttermilk,
Shoo, fly, shoo,
Fly's in the buttermilk,
Shoo, fly, shoo,
Skip to my Lou, my darlin'.

Skip, skip, skip to my Lou,
Skip, skip, skip to my Lou,
Skip, skip, skip to my Lou,
Skip to my Lou, my darlin'.
Cows in the cornfield,
What'll I do?
Cows in the cornfield,
What'll I do?
Cows in the cornfield,
What'll I do?
Skip to my Lou, my darlin'.

Skip, skip, skip to my Lou,
Skip, skip, skip to my Lou,
Skip, skip, skip to my Lou,
Skip to my Lou, my darlin'.
There's a little red wagon,
Paint it blue
There’s a little red wagon,
Paint it blue
There’s a little red wagon,
Paint it blue
Skip to my Lou, my darlin'.

Skip, skip, skip to my Lou,
Skip, skip, skip to my Lou,
Skip, skip, skip to my Lou,
Skip to my Lou, my darlin'
What'll I do?
Lost my partner,
What'll I do?
Skip to the lou, my darlin'.

Skip, skip, skip to the Lou,
Skip, skip, skip to the Lou,
Skip, skip, skip to the Lou,
Skip to the Lou, my darlin'.
I'll get another one
Prettier than you,
I'll get another one
Prettier than you,
I'll get another one
Prettier than you,
Skip to the Lou, my darlin'

Skip, skip, skip to the Lou,
Skip, skip, skip to the Lou,
Skip, skip, skip to the Lou,
Skip to the Lou, my darlin'.
Can't get a red bird,
Jay bird'll do,
Can't get a red bird,
Jay bird'll do,
Can't get a red bird,
Jay bird'll do,
Skip to my Lou, my darlin'.

Skip, skip, skip to the Lou,
Skip, skip, skip to the Lou,
Skip, skip, skip to the Lou,
Skip to the Lou, my darlin'.
Fly's in the buttermilk,
Shoo, fly, shoo,
Fly's in the buttermilk,
Shoo, fly, shoo,
Fly's in the buttermilk,
Shoo, fly, shoo,
Skip to my Lou, the darlin'.

Skip, skip, skip to the Lou,
Skip, skip, skip to the Lou,
Skip, skip, skip to the Lou,
Skip to the Lou, my darlin'.
Cat's in the cream jar,
Ooh, ooh, ooh,
Cat's in the cream jar,
Ooh, ooh, ooh,
Cat's in the cream jar,
Ooh, ooh, ooh,
Skip to my Lou, the darlin'.

Skip, skip, skip to the Lou,
Skip, skip, skip to the Lou,
Skip, skip, skip to the Lou,
Skip to the Lou, my darlin'.
Off to Texas,
Two by two,
Off to Texas,
Two by two,
Off to Texas,
Two by two,
Skip to my Lou, the darlin'.

Skip, skip, skip to the Lou,
Skip, skip, skip to the Lou,
Skip, skip, skip to the Lou,
Skip to the Lou, my darlin'.

Regards,
JLY

11 Spet 2009

2009-09-11T13:59:00.001+08:00

A song to remember

Should old acquaintance be forgot,
and never brought to mind ?
Should old acquaintance be forgot,
and old lang syne ?

CHORUS:
For auld lang syne, my dear,
for auld lang syne,
we'll take a cup of kindness yet,
for auld lang syne.

And surely you’ll buy your pint cup !
and surely I’ll buy mine !
And we'll take a cup o’ kindness yet,
for auld lang syne.

CHORUS

We two have run about the slopes,
and picked the daisies fine ;
But we’ve wandered many a weary foot,
since auld lang syne.

CHORUS

We two have paddled in the stream,
from morning sun till dine† ;
But seas between us broad have roared
since auld lang syne.

CHORUS

And there’s a hand my trusty friend !
And give us a hand o’ thine !
And we’ll take a right good-will draught,
for auld lang syne.

Regards,
JLY

3rd September 2009

2009-09-03T08:58:00.000+08:00

feels super low again.

still the same ....
Still me ...

Smiling,
JLY

2th Sep 2009

2009-09-02T10:40:00.000+08:00

Feeling super low. Money issues.
Never seems to have enough to use.
Job security has became another issue
Wong Da Han has just been retrench yesterday.
worried of my own rice bowl.

Life seems so .... tiring.
So many things I wanna do,
So many places i wanna travel.
So tied down to reality ..

wasted my youth on trivial stuff.
I feel like I'm alive, but no living.
I am Very worried about my future.

I had always thought that i am special.
that some one up there likes me and will shelter me
That I was groom to be something great.

My pride is hurting, I cannot accept what I had become
all my lost opportunities. All my shattered dreams

when i think about what they say
" a man should always stand up after he falls down"
It's makes me smile.
For i had fallen so many times, I don't think i can take one more fall.

I am just so tired nowadays. I tried to live my life like others.
Yet .. I can't.
I am different.
I am not your everyday normal regular guy.
I tried to be , but I'm not.

Life, in it's cruel embrace
Killed best in me today.
Snatched away my innocents dreams
and caused me to behave this way.
I had smiled and grind my teeth
once more I'll spit in his eye
once more I'll live my life.
If I were to fail and tremble
catch me before I fall.
cut short my life and extend it forever
This is when I heel my call

Putting on my mask,
JLY

31th August 2009

2009-08-31T16:04:00.000+08:00

A song that fits me

Oh yes, I'm the great pretender
Pretending that I'm doing well
My need is such; I pretend too much
I'm lonely but no one can tell.

Oh yes, I'm the great pretender
A drift in a world of my own
I play the game; but to my real shame
You've let me to dream all alone.

Too real is this feeling of make believe
Too real when I feel what my heart can't conceal.

Oh yes I'm the great pretender
Just laughing and gay like a clown
I seem to be what I'm not; you see
I'm wearing my heart like a crown
Pretending that you're still around.

Too real is this feeling of make believe
Too real when I feel what my heart can't conceal

Yes I'm the great pretender
Just laughing and gay like a clown
I seem to be what I'm not you see
I'm wearing my heart like a crown
Pretending that you're still around

BRB,

JLY

27th August 2009

2009-08-27T10:06:00.000+08:00

Another weird dream last night,
I was a Vampire, talking to a werewolf.
some how , i was lead into a cave where there is blood stored in it

I was told to contribute some to it.

So i dream I bit my left wrist , and a trickle of blood flow down.
Then i was worried about healing my self ...

Weird dream ...

Cya ,

JLY

26th Aug 2009

2009-08-26T10:31:00.000+08:00

So broke these days, cash flow getting tight.
Wife’s Birthday is coming up. Need to get her a gift.
9th Sep 2009 is coming. 9/9/09
Nice number feels like doing something on that day.

Had a weird dream last night,
Dream of a portrait of two young girls
Around 8 to 10 years of age.
They look identical to each other.
One would say “I am real”
The other will say “I am fake”
And they keep repeating …

So far that’s all

P.s

A song for yesterday

Kiss The Girl

regards,
Lewis

20th Aug 2009

2009-08-20T09:50:00.000+08:00

Another day in N2C12, Not so much of work here.
Wife got her PR confirmation from ICA. Woot !!

Looking for HDB flat now .

Regards,
Vamplre

12th August 2009

2009-08-12T15:05:00.002+08:00

Still feeling low and moody.
Do not feel good at all.
if i could , I would sleep my life away
(But do wake me when something interesting happens)

How did I get this way?
What can I do ?

Tired,

JLY

11th August 2009

2009-08-11T09:07:00.002+08:00

Tick tock , tick tock , time past so damn fast.
What have i accomplished ? What is my purpose in life ?
I don't know the answer to that.

what are my hobbies ? I Like to laze around the house and watch Sitcoms or play computers games.

what a boring life i lead.

update on the long weekend I just had (8th,9th,10th)

8th - spend the morning on surfing net,
afternoon went for a swim with wifey , bear and jason
Shown them how to swim with hand and legs bound (dolphin style)and to swim
without using legs.
Evening, when for a sushi Dinner, then off to liquid Cafe for TCSS session.
Though out the time in Liquid cafe , my arms are hurting , over exercise ?
sleep around 3am , cos of the pain.

9th - Spend the morning in front of the TV
Met edric to complete the "Hulk Farts" project.
Realized that I am quite camera shy(Tend to blank out when the camera rolls)

10th- spend the day watching "Becker" Session 1 and 2
spend an evening playing World of Warcraft.

and there you have it. how I spend 3 days on nothing.

Regards,
JLY

3rd August 2009

2009-08-03T14:48:00.002+08:00

Monday in the office again

Feels tired of my work.
Am i making the right choice to be in this trade ?

came to realize that my body is alive ..
It heals it self ..
and because it's alive , It will die.

thinking of ways to get out from dying.

I don't wanna die . still got so many things to do,

I had not lived , so I cannot die yet.

Biologically Immortal ,
JLY

2009-07-29T13:04:00.001+08:00

Found a quote of the sitcom " friends'

The One Where the Stripper Cries [10.11]

[On the game show Pyramid, Joey's partner Gene gets the word "cream."]
Gene: You put this in your coffee.
Joey: A spoon! Your hands! Your face!
Gene: It's white.
Joey: Paper! Snow! A ghost!
Gene: It's heavier than milk.
Joey: A rock! A dog! The earth!
Gene: Pass!

Regards,
JLY

23th July 2009

2009-07-23T09:56:00.001+08:00

What am I up to these days ?

I’ve been reading The Night Angel’s Trilogy by Brent Weeks.
Quite a good read.
Been playing World of Warcraft again . Just re started a paladin (Horde)
Cranking my brain to earn more money.
Feeling tired most of the time

Later ,
JLY

16th July 2009

2009-07-16T09:21:00.000+08:00

Feelings ...

Stay away, my friend
I am not what I am.
You don’t know me
I am not the simple man

I am such a fake.
My life builds on lies.
So many nights I go to bed
Wishing I could die

Stay away, my friend
My life is a complex scam
I had so many dreadful secrets
I feel like I am damned

regards,
JLY

9th July 2009

2009-07-09T09:46:00.003+08:00

A clip by WhateverHollywood

After see this clip , I am feeling about about mt country

Freedom I Need ,
JLY

6th July 2009

2009-07-06T09:08:00.002+08:00

I had watched Transformer 2 over the weekend.
Not bad at all. The funny part came after the show
When we were walking out, i had over heard a Malay auntie complain
"The pyramids is so fake, not real one!"
Yar , you are okay with the fact that alien robots are waging war on planet earth.
but the pyramids looks fake to you ?
That was Saturday

Sunday; spend it wondering aimlessly with Jason at bugis
Bear and wifey went shopping.
The day at bugis makes me feel like an old man.
Young people everywhere all dressed up.
Me? In polo and jeans … looking for a café to slack.
Getting too old to hang at malls

Oh well, the weekends over, back to work.
And yet I am feeling lost and tired.
$$ I need money. I think it might make me happy.

I’ve been reading a lot of novels lately.
The stories are mostly about fantasy and honour.
Makes me think a lot of the current life I am living.

Rigante wannabe,
JLY

2th July 2009

2009-07-02T11:42:00.002+08:00

blogging in the office. Don't feel really good.
Was sick the last few days, fever , cough, flu.

I longs for easier days. simpler days.

Simple boring days are good. stress free days are better
days of no finical worries are best.

tired ,

JLY

25th june 2009

2009-06-25T14:21:00.001+08:00

Found this randomly online ,

Touched something in me

I think of you often
and make no outward show,
But what it means to lose you,
no one will ever know

You wished no one farewell,
not even said good-bye,
You were gone before I knew it,
and only God knows why.

You are not forgotten
nor will you ever be,
As long as life and memories last,
I will remember thee.

To some you may be forgotten,
to others a part of the past,
But to me who loved you dearly,
your memories will always last.

Nothing can be more beautiful
than the memories I have of you.
To me, you were someone special,
God must have thought so too!

If tears could build a staircase
and memories a lane,
I would walk all the way to Heaven,
and bring you back again.

25th June 2009

2009-06-25T13:39:00.001+08:00

"But the poor dog, in life the firmest friend,
The first to welcome, foremost to defend,
Whose honest heart is still his master's own,
Who labors, fights, lives, breathes for him alone,
Unhonored falls, unnoticed all his worth,
Denied in heaven the soul he held on earth –
While man, vain insect! hopes to be forgiven,
And claims himself a sole exclusive heaven"

By Lord Byron

25th June 2009

2009-06-25T12:04:00.002+08:00

Blogging during lunch time.
Super bored at factory.
Had requested for transfer. but was told to hold on till end of the year.

Seems to have little time for myself.
had not been playing WOW for a long time.

an update on myself.

I am a Hakka, born with Marfan syndrome. Tall and almost over weight. 192cm 90kg.

Was thinking of going back to Christianity for the last two days.
yet ...

regards,

Lewis

22th June 2009

2009-06-22T09:46:00.002+08:00

Monday , back at work in the factory. gosh, time passes damn slow here.

Spend over my budget last weekend. Little Bali, Mushroom's restaurant , 3 packs of beer, pizzas and Macdonalds' deliveries . over eat and over spent.

feeling very tired as i did not have a good night rest. stomach pain , too warm , too cold , too thirsty , kept me up most of the night.

oh well , looking forward to a good night rest .

Peace out,

JLY

17th June 2009

2009-06-17T11:59:00.001+08:00

Oh great , now I'm stuck alone in the factory.
my new partner just quit from YS. I need to find something to do. if not I'll bore to death here.

Going to reg a company next week. shall do some hit and run biz.

So bored till I don't know what to blog.
JLY

15th June 2009

2009-06-15T15:27:00.000+08:00

Sucks ... trapped in a factory. DO NOT LIKE IT HERE !!

This is a blast from the past. The below is written when I was still in OCBC. During the mood swings days.

“What if everything is an illusion? All is nothing but a lie. Everything is fake. The friends we speak to, the work we do. Everything is fake. There is a high possibility of things are being empty.

What can one do to be real? Our laughter and tears will not be around after a million years, I can make people laugh, make them cry. But what for?

Laughter fades, tears will dry. There must be realism towards life. Even beauty fades, morals can be corrupted and the law bends. Oaths are easily broken and loves sometimes dies off.

I feel we are merely a grain of sand in a beach.

We can drink to get drunk, but the effects will fade, it seems everything is futile. After all, the ultimate truth is, we are all alone. You come to this world empty handed, you leave like wise.

Since we are all alone, what we do should have minimum effect on others. We can help them make decisions or show them a path. But the point? Even heroes and genius are forgotten through the passage of time.

There have been countless of wars and battles through the progress of man kind. Let me ask, how many heroes you remember?
What have become their glory and sacrifice?
I fear it was all in vain…”

I can only type up till here … It is quite a depressing letter … gosh …

Back in the past ,

JLY

11th June 2009

2009-06-11T09:48:00.002+08:00

My last day @ Project N2C12. So many thoughts run thru my mind.
Had a talk with myself last night. So much had happen since ...
My mistake made was not even worth it. Suppose I do deserved better.

Oh well, for memories sake.
I'll list down a few people that gotten my attention in this site.

Lee Seng Hock - Senior Site supervisor, Friendly man with a quick temper.
Quek Chiat tang - Site manager - loggerheads with above mention , but still a nice guy
Wai Phyo Aung - project engineer - great guy !
Yiu Chai Ying - Site clerk - Sings a lot

the fact that i'm leaving tears me apart ... slightly.
Came in this site for 1 mth plus . build relations with them all. and yet now i have to leave.
But of cos, " ALl good things comes to an end ".

With this , I'll close the N2C12 chapter and move on with life.

Cheers,
Lewis Yang

9th June 2009

2009-06-09T09:11:00.003+08:00

There is a lot of issues I would like to highlight

first shall be my dream waking sleeping. I drift in and out of dreams and reality. It's getting a bit scary.

Secondly - Shall be my need for a good conversation. Miss them so.
(After all, when I'm transferred away to Pandan. I doubt I'll have time for it)
(Although it's not if I'm having any good conversation here at N2C12)

Thirdly - The salesman Side of me keeps popping up like a Alarm reminder.Feels like sales is my true trade. ( Rather then Safety)

Fourthly - Is that I am hooked to Facebook and Twitter. need to twit is strong ....

TTYL,

JLY

8th June 2009

2009-06-08T13:57:00.003+08:00

Slacking around at N2C12. Going to transfer off on the 12th June to a factory at Pandan Cresent. Sucks , Hate to have punch card to monitor my timings.

Oh well , what to do.

It's a good thing i'm leaving soon too. Before the Flame spreads any larger.

Cya later

JLY

4th June 2009

2009-06-04T15:23:00.003+08:00

Freedom. democracy

The old cannot suppress the young forever.

we will remember

JLY

02 June 2009

2009-06-02T08:32:00.002+08:00

another mistake made.
hate to drink and forget myself.
The auto pilot version of me when i drink is Evil/Lusty/Greedy/stupid

What mistake made was unknown. only that the fact I had drink too much for my own good.
Said so many times before. I wanna stop drinking.

Guess that I'm weak.

Later,
Jeffrey Lewis Yang

29th May 2009

2009-05-29T11:34:00.002+08:00

Almost to the last days of the month.
feeling quite lazy and bored.
Make me nervous -
One step at a time , don't be living on the line
Don't need a friend, I got morbid on my mind.
Sunshine in my brain, making everyone complaint.
Radio in the heart, Don't be so strange.

Think I'm losing it, baby where you been ?
Everybody say you been moving again
i don't wanna be right baby every single night
I can tell you a thing bout taking your time.
it's making me nervous

Addicted to this song.

Like the part" Don't need a friend, I got morbid on my mind."

Morbid Morbid,
JLY

28th May 2009

2009-05-28T10:40:00.002+08:00

Another boring day in the office.
Sucks. can't seems to have much to write.
Oh ya , temptation is getting strong. But must control those feelings.

TTYL

JLY

26th May 2009

2009-05-26T13:10:00.002+08:00

I am starting to like my own reflection. Much much more after the hair cut.
but i seems to have put on a bit of weight. seems to have a rounder face.

Short post this few days

JLY

25th May 2009

2009-05-25T09:18:00.002+08:00

New start. Cut my hair super short. Looks like a young boy.

Did not know what to blog now.

JLY

21th May 2009

2009-05-21T09:50:00.002+08:00

Finally got the chance to blog again,
been transferred to another site at woodlands (N2c12)

So Goodbye casa merah =)
Last few weeks was super boring
New site , new faces. No office , no computer, no internet access.

Cya

JLY

29th April 2009

2009-04-29T10:51:00.001+08:00

Back to work.

Had Lasik on 25th April. Not a very good experiences
No pain , but discomfort level is high.

Can see normally without glass , but still blurry at times.
Cost me a bomb. 3k plus.

Bye bye glasses ,
Lewis Yang

22th April 2009

2009-04-22T11:44:00.003+08:00

Been hooked on Eragon (Novel). the movie sucks

same stressful week for me. work work and more work.
Work issues that can't be solved.

Been playing WOW seriously now as well. Into Death Knight.

Not much to update. had a study group coming on the 2rd of may.

regards,
JLY

18th April 2009

2009-04-18T09:02:00.002+08:00

Convinced Kok wei and Nick to start in my current server.
World of Warcraft , FTW !

This whole week had not been very smooth for me.
Oh well , It's up and downs in life.

Suddenly this morning , I have the urge to go star gazing.
Used to watch the stars in silent with a friend. I remember peace and happiness then.

later meeting Edric and Willy ong for study group/ Dinner.

Some rants going inside me ...

" I remember watching the stars with you, I remember that Birthday.
I remember waiting for you , I remember your tears and laughter.
We shared a weird history , We shared the same humor, We shared the same darkness within us..
You will always have a place in my heart, You are more like family . My friend."

" you dunno how you met me , you don't know why , you can't turn around and say goodbye , all you know is when i'm with you , I'll set you free "

" you know you are like heroin , one is too much , one hundred is not enough, so addictive. so wrong and right . mixed together like blood and wine"

" do you think It's cool , to walk right up and take my life and FUCK IT UP ? Well did you ? I HATE YOU !!!"

" Touching you makes me feel alive , touching you make me die inside"

"I don't want you ... I need you ... I fear you , I fear for you ."

" I look at him , sitting as a god. You looked at him and cast him a smile. Envy and hates him. Jealousy rages "

"You once said " That's what friends are for "

"You used me .. you always knew ... you are cruel , you toyed with me. "

" Now it's too late for anything , no intervention will do , we are mixed. the sweetest wine , with the purest blood .

" What I am born without , I don't need it"

"I'm that star up in the sky
I'm that mountain peak up high
Hey I made it
Mmm..
I'm the world's greatest
I'm that little bit of hope
When my backs against the ropes
I can feel it
Mmm..
I'm the world's greatest
the world greatest,
the world greatest, forever"

Give me Death Or give me LIBERTY !!
JLY

13th April 2009

2009-04-13T12:35:00.002+08:00

It's Jason Koh bday. happy birthday to him

it's Monday and i'm super busy. ( this is my lunch time)

Had tons of papper work to catch up.

last weekend was a nightmare.

thursday - Went down to MOM , kenna bark at as if I'm worthless. Really hurt my pride. ( mimosa problem)

Friday - good Friday , received a nasty phone call. I had to reached 101 Mimosa crescent on Saturday . super far , no bus , no mrt .

Sat morning - went to mimosa , cab down ($15) , did my work , cab home ($15)

reached home for about ten mins , casa merah PM called , ask me to rush back casa merah for urgent meeting . cab to casa merah ($23). waited 1 hr for meeting to start . then was told i should " concentrate on casa merah . Mimosa will be handled by another)

WTF ? Now i kenna scold by mom for nothing , all my cab money down the drain . arrgghh.

Sunday - my only day of rest and relax. spend on doing casa merah report till 3pm , then read the rest of the day .

now , back to Monday - tons and tons of papper work . at least 4 mths worth . have to settle before Wednesday . or before MOM comes

Regrads,
lewis

2009-04-06T13:13:00.002+08:00

headache. it had been a while since I had studied.
Was reading into options. had to be more serious about life

Weekend passed fast.

Saturday - met Edric , Keong and willy for Karaoke at Liang court.
Talk cock sing song till almost 4am. But it did spark a passion for Options ,
Thanks to keong.

Sunday - slept till afternoon , WOW for a while , read and read till the evening.

i need to know much more about options , stocks , investment before i start pumping in money.

Need to be free,
JLY

03 April 2009

2009-04-03T09:19:00.002+08:00

I was right about the right before the storm.
gotten a nasty email from my Project manager to be Serious about my work.
How the fuck am I to work with out workers ?
Bloody idiot.

An update on my week.

Monday - stationed at orchard site (Sambo) met Bear and Bella for lunch.
Walk till Plaza Singapore for a lousy lunch. Yucks.
Went of to meet Jason , kelvin and mushroom.
Talk cock sing song. Realized I had nothing much to say to them.
My fault,
I miss a good conversation. instead of idle chatters.

Tuesday - Back at Tenah Merah . Starting to dread the people there. Idiotic project manager. Cut one day salary from my time sheet. asshole.

Wednesday - had a dream , met twinne for lunch. I've missed her as well.

thurdays - Spend the morning On WOW. hit level 24. hated the alliances.

this is my week so far.

Sat , gonna to meet my camp mates. been a while since i last saw them.

been playing a song by the eagles ( Waiting in the weeds)
It's weird to have a song that reflects my feelings so well.
In multiple points.

"Waiting In The Weeds"

It's comin' on the end of August
Another summer's promise almost gone
And though I heard some wise man say
That every dog will have his day
He never mentioned that these dog days get so long

I don't know when I realized the dream was over
Well, there was no particular hour, no given day
You know, it didn't go down in flame
There was no final scene, no frozen frame
I just watched it slowly fade away

And I've been waiting in the weeds
Waiting for my time to come around again and
Hope is floating on the breeze
Carrying my soul high up above the ground and
I've been keepin' to myself
Knowin' that the seasons are slowly changing
Even though you're with somebody else
He'll never love you like I do

I've been biding time with the crows and sparrows
While peacocks prance and strut upon the stage
If finding love is just a dance
Proximity and chance
You will excuse me if I skip the masquerade

And I've been waiting in the weeds
Waiting for the dust to settle down along the
Back roads running through the fields
Lying on the outskirts of this lonesome town
And I imagine sunlight in your hair
You're at the county fair

You're holding hands and laughing
And now the ferris wheel has stopped
You're swinging on the top
Suspended there with him

And he's the darling of the chic
The flavor of the week is melting
Down your pretty summer dress
Baby, what a mess you're making

I've been stumbling through some dark places
Now I'm following the plow
I know I've fallen out of your good graces
It's alright now

And I've been waiting in the weeds
Waiting for the summer rain to fall upon the
Wild birds scattering the seeds
Answering the calling of the tide's eternal tune
The phases of the moon
The chambers of the heart
The ebb and dart of small gray
Spiders spinning in the dark
In spite of all the times the web is torn apart

And I've been waiting in the weeds
Waiting for the time to come around again and
Hope is floating on the breeze
Carrying my soul high up above the ground and
I've been keeping to myself
Knowing that the seasons are slowly changing
Even though you're with somebody else
He'll never love you like I do

I need a good laught,
JLY

26th march 2009

2009-03-26T09:24:00.002+08:00

today's my second wedding anniversary.
no intention for celebrations.

life these days seems good ,
a caring wife.
got a good boss,
a few good friend.
lots of memories .
A pay rise in the midst of the recession.

yet I got a feeling it's the calm before the storm.
I hope It's not and I get even luckier
and prove the fact that I'm AWESOME !

Till then ,
JLY

24th March 2009

2009-03-24T09:46:00.003+08:00

It's Tuesday. spend the last few days on world of warcraft.
Felt sorry to leave my old guild. Zero Tolerances.
trying to level my Shaman fast. My second character for the horde.
( first was a ret Pally)

today's I'll rant about lost youth.
Army. conscription.
Wasted 2 years of my youth.
I could have had a head start in my career.
I could have life freely.
I hate army
Army Ruin My Youth.

Starting to do some part-time admin work
Not so bad. did not plan to do so.
A guy approached me , asking for help with his work
i had intended to help for free. but he shoved a $100 note in my hand.
much needed as i did not have much cash on me today.

been thinking about cutting my hair short these days.
don't know if i should. must be the hot weather.
Gosh , I wanna live in somewhere cooler.

20th March 2009

2009-03-20T10:43:00.002+08:00

It's a Friday.
Just got a $300 pay rise.
what a way to start my morning.

last night was funny.
Me and Jason was goofing around at the pool table
Blowing balls . had a good laugh.

Before that , I had a good conversation with RLYF in a dream
wow , she changed alot. silly girl hair. still as lean , still that charming smile.
it's good to know she's my friend. we are based on laughters
Can you imagined someone who shares your humor , laugh at all your jokes.

I enjoy that ..... a lot

back to real world.

last night , jason , bear , Stella came over for a swim.
Ah cai was susposed to come , in the end , too busy having sex with his new girlfriend.
wonder if he shown her his centipede.

not sure what to blog as well .

Oh watch Collegehumor from youtube. they are a blast .

CYA,
JLY

16th March 2009

2009-03-16T16:08:00.002+08:00

came back from Genting last night.
Freaking tired and sleepy
I had spend nearly 48 hours inside the casino.
I love the feeling of wining =)

In my trip to Genting , we were basically gambling and gambling,
stopping for meals only 3 times in 2 days.

Once for pizza , twice for burger king.
Malaysia's Burger king is way too small for me.

it's a miracle i survived this trip with a loss of 400 dollars ( Yue lost alot)
and a very tired body

there's the story,

Reach Boon lay shopping centre at 8.30pm
was told that the check-in for bus will be at 9.00pm
start my trip at 9.30
6 hour plus journey , reach around 3 plus am

met Jason and bear at 1st world hotel.
went up to disturb Marc and Xiuli. keep ring their door bell. ( Jason)
force them down to casino and let the games begins !!!

In short , we did not even check into our rooms till the last day.
sleeping not in my plans ... so from 13th march 0700 i woke up . i did not had any more peaceful sleep till 16th march 0100.

but i took 3 power naps . first one for 1 hour , second and third is 2 hours.

the photos will be uploaded next time .

' '
V""V

JLY

12th march 2009

2009-03-12T09:01:00.002+08:00

Oh well , I'm 27 years old.

Kinda sucks. why must I age ?
I thought we had a deal ?
other people can grow old.
Not me ...

quick updates on my birthday.
No celebration nor cakes
I am not a believer of birthdays.
not living in a warzone, thus not dying for 365 days is not something I feel the need to celebrate
But of cos a nice dinner is welcome.

Slacked at home in the early part.
pace around at home in my boxer
surfing net , watching animes
Junk food for breakfast.
a real lazy start.

Mid afternoon , went to Westmall
for some deliveries ,
Met Jason and befriended kelvin
Tcss at coffeeshop till evening

went to Valli balli with family
realized I had been there before with OCBC friends
Took a few cocktails. (Been a while since I drink)
feel a bit tipsy

My first ranting when I'm 27

the distance between people.
Received a email from a friend
inside it wrote : 如果我們之間有1000步的距離
你只要跨出第1步
我就會朝你的方向走其餘的999步 .

Then we asked how close is our friendship
and the answer ? 1000 steps apart
But who's going to take the first step.
It's always like this. we do our own thing a thousand step away.
I glance over , you glance over . once in a while
=) . I enjoy this . I truly do

Regards,
Lewis

09 March 2009

2009-03-09T08:56:00.001+08:00

Tired and sleepy

Had a long weekend( Friday till Sunday)

Friday woke up at 6am .
Realized my Mp3 is flat. How to take the trains without it ?
called in sick , spend the day at the mall. Bad experiences from Sing post. But it's mostly my mistake.
spend the afternoon with Jason. TCSS a lot
slept at 4am

Sat -Woke at 7.30am. My brother and sister's birthday. went to to eat SEC ( salted egg crab) at my fave place. somehow the crab's standard drop. way too overcooked. hope it's a one off thingy.
Slept at 5am

Sun-waking up at intervals - 11am , 1pm ,3pm and 5pm
net surfing .. till 1.30am

feels like a zombie now
JLY

5th March 2009

2009-03-05T10:32:00.002+08:00

You know I use different names in different situations
More like a power word, to get me in the flow

Vamplre = The Great undying powerful wise man
Jeffrey = Boy next door
Lewis = Working name
Hector = To feel brave ( even against all odds)

Today - I had created another power word.

Evan - For the Single , flirtatious , witty ,awesome me

New power word,
JLY

4th march 2009

2009-03-04T08:55:00.002+08:00

Gotten a shock last night when twinne called.
Is she trying to end my life ?
Anyways , it's been awhile since i heard her voice
(I do not understand what you were saying)

Been playing the fool these few weeks
Not really work that hard, But it's okay,
cos I'll managed somehow.

Guess the party is coming to a halt soon
Better announce the "Last Call" before the bar closes
it's a pity all parties comes to an end.
I really had a blast.

You be good,
JLY

28th Feb 2009

2009-02-28T15:48:00.001+08:00

I enjoy this

Mardi Gras came and went,
all my money has been spent.
How 'm I gonna pay the rent
sitting on -my ass/your face?

Who mistook the steak for chicken?
Who'm I gonna stick my dick in?
We're not those kids,
sitting on the couch.

my former life i -had a sister/was a high roller,
I abused her and I dissed her/ walked my kids in a diamond stroller,
she got swept up in a twister/ found my calling as a part time bowler
first I laughed and then i missed her/ traded my wife in for a new green roller.
Who mistook these baths for showers?
Who fucked up that leaning tower?
We're not those kids,
sitting on the couch.

Oh, get on a greyhound and ride away,
different dreams from yesterday/ live on birthday cake each day
tell your -grandma you're ok/ grandparents that they're gay,
kiss her cheek/steal their money- and run away.
Me and my friends are so smart:
we invented this new kind of -darts/art
hit a bull's eye cut up heart/ post modernist throwing darts
smoking crack and -cutting back/crack.
Who mistook this crap for genius?/ who is dancing on the ceiling?
Who is gonna stroke my penis?/who is gonna hurt my feelings
We're not those kids,
sitting on the couch,
sitting on the couch.

Oh -even your mother is a crook/people are shiny like a brand new book
but if -I get/you take- a closer look
there's shit on every -road you took/hand you shook
You don't believe me?
Read the book/ Look at your hand.
Who made all these things for killing?
Whose -empty heart/pussy hole- needs filling?
We're not those kids,
sitting on the couch.

Who mistook the steak for chicken?
Who'm I gonna stick my dick in?
We're not those kids,
sitting on the couch x 4.

28th Feb 2009

2009-02-28T08:28:00.003+08:00

Cab down to office today, Super sleepy
All because of the restless sleep last night
Need more sleep ...

I feel so sleepy and tired now. toss and turn till 4am

Loved the lunch i had yesterday (subway) , enjoyed it very much
Until now i still have subway cravings . I LOVE SUBS
Stuck in long traffic to NATAS FAIR Last night.
Totally not worth it. All gimmicks.

Follow marc to tampines for dinner then headed to Loyang for prayers
once we were done it was neal 1130.
Really felt sleepy and tired (Guess I'm getting old)

Met this question -To choose a lie that bring a smile
Or a truth that will shed a tear ?
Really thought hard about it. Here's my answer
Even though It'll hurt , I will want the truth

Truth hurts , But I WILL not stop there
How I will try to make things better ?
Even if it kills me. I'll want the truth to be as sweet as the lie
Needless to say , failing that - GIVE ME DEATH OR GIVE ME LIBERTY

There seems to be sparks flying these days , sparks of conflict , sparks of romances.
Hoping everything will be alright. We need more gentlemen and ladies.
I wish I could be one, but I'm not. I'm half half. remember - Gentleman Bastard
So I could be wrong , I may be right . and I'm really tired and stupid too

(This changes nothing , sorry)
Incoming-code,
JLY

27th Feb 2009

2009-02-27T09:21:00.002+08:00

Been awhile I've been feelinglonely
Ever since most of my friends are drifting away
Like we hardly know each other , we used to be so close
Like we have never meet each other
And all the adventures we shared are faded in time

Laughter that we all shared before
Once , we promised our little band would not fade
Once , We were even Bros , I had your back , you had mine
Kind comforting words , we knew deep down this day would come
Supposed I treat you nicer , would it make a different

Guess I'm blogging this is because I miss you all
One man with friends can be lonely,
One Genius without fools around him looks plain
Damn I hate you all and I misses you all

!!!!!
JLY

24th Feb 2009

2009-02-24T09:06:00.002+08:00

It's pay day.

had a bad weekend.

On Saturday - Had Salt egg crab at Ghim moh market. Not good at all.
Buttered cereals Prawn sucks too. To think i had endured the crowd for it.
Spend the rest of the night with the computer.

On Sunday , woke up with a very bad back.
I could hardly get out of bed. felt like a 90 year old man after sex.
Sore , cranky. I was in pain.

Monday - Spend on Facebook and movies.

Brb,
Jeffrey Lewis Yang

20 Feb 2009

2009-02-20T11:13:00.003+08:00

I can't believe I found it

The legendary Bro Code.

This set of Code is what friends should live by ..
In short it's awesome

Article 1:
Bros before hoes. Always remember, girlfriends come and go, but your boys are always there. Breaking this rule is to commit the cardinal sin against Team Testosterone.

Article 2:
Never drink the last beer, unless you've been granted specific permission that it's OK.

Article 3:
If a girl falls into the following criteria, she is off limits forever until the end of time:

A. Was an ex-girlfriend.
B. Your friend specifically told you he wanted her.
C. Is you're buddy's sister.

However, if it's your buddy's cousin, well she's up for grabs, and you're welcome to rub it in his face for years to come.

Article 4:
Never diss a guy if his team just lost a crushing game.

Article 5:
You must never own a cat.

New amendment to this rule: A Bro may never own more than 2 cats, but only if they adhere to the Bro Code

Article 6:
If you get 2 tickets to the big game, the priority list for granting the second ticket is as follows:

1. Your best friends (in order of how long you've known them).
2. Your acquaintances.
3. Your co-workers.
4. The mailman.
5. The UPS guy.
6. NASA.
7. John Kerry.
....1,485,726. Your girlfriend.

Article 7:
You are allowed to enjoy exactly one chick TV show, and one chick flick. You may have no more.

Article 8:
Birthday and Christmas presents for your guy friends are optional. Beer always makes a great gift.

Article 9:
If you go the bar with your buddies, you must buy a round of drinks at least once. The Bro with the better paying job is required to buy the first round. If the other Bro is temporarily out of money or left his wallet at home drinks can be lended yet in the long run these drinks must be repaid, later that night by wingman services or any other act of entertainment or at the next gathering.

Article 10:
There are no mercy rules when playing someone in Madden, hoops, street hockey, bare-fisted boxing, etc.

Article 11:
If you owe someone money, pay them back as soon as humanly possible—unless it's a gambling debt, which must be paid immediately.

Article 12:
Standard shotgun rules are as follows.

A. Shotgun may only be called within full sight of the car.
B. Shotgun must be called outside.
C. Shotgun calls last approximately ten minutes.
D. Shotgun never carries over to a second ride.

Article 13:
NO PDA (Public Displays of Affection).

Article 14:
It's alright to cheat at any game where money isn't involved. In certain circumstances, relationships may be classified as "games."

Article: 15:
Don't tell other guys elaborate stories about your weightlifting exercise routine. No one cares.

Article 16:
Never openly question another guy's sports wisdom, unless said information specifically pertains to your favorite team.

Article 17:
When out with the guys, never accept a call from your girlfriend—unless she's dying or trapped under a burning fuel truck, and if that's the case, make it quick.

Article 18:
Always allow a buffer zone at urinals and on couches.

Article 19:
Never share a bed with a guy, unless there's no way around it.

Article 20:
Bros Before Hoes. I know, I already used it. I can't stress it enough, though. It is absolutely infuriating how many of my guy friends have become insufferable ***** since they've gone out with someone.

Article 21:
In a 6 person hot tub, there should be a maximum of 3 guys.

Article 22:
A Bro should not sing and dance at the same time

Article 23:
A Bro should not watch Oxygen, Womens Entertainment, or Lifetime.

Article 24:
Men do not lie about their age.

Article 25:
A Bro should not swing his arms when he is walking.

Article 26:
A Bro will, in a timely manner, alert his Bro to the existence of a girl fight. A Bro must never hesitate before communicating the possibility of fisticuffs between two humans of the female variety [[HENCEFORTH "GIRL FIGHT"]], in an effort to make possible and probable that another Bro or Bros can partake in observation. A timely manner is open to interpretation based on the initial Bro's viewing and processing of the potential feminine conflagration. Said Bro must use any and all methods of media distribution at his disposal, including but not limited to: telecommunications, elbow nudging, fiber optics, the Broney express, and postcards. If an informed Bro is unable to witness the girl fight firsthand, the spotter Bro is responsible for documenting and relating details of the girl fight via pictures, video*, or barring any other reasonable method, interpretive dance and/or pantomime. Tabling Bro obligations to witness a XX chromosomal scuffle is not only condoned, but encouraged, and in some cases, required. Please refer to the Brobligation rubric as elucidated in AMENDMENT 83: "The REALLY hot sister and other hump trumps."

Article 27:
A Bro should never carry a woman's handbag

Article 28:
A Bro should never go tanning.

Article 29:
No Bro should dye their hair

Article 30:
A Bro should never refer to an athlete as a "stud"

Article 31:
A Bro should never cry during a movie. In the event that he does, he must under no circumstance admit it to anyone other than a girl he is trying to score with.

Article 32:
A Bro should not "pop" his collar.

Article 33:
A Bro should not speak more than two languages.

Unless

1. He has lived for a minimum of 9 months in a country whose main language is one of those languages
2. He uses the extra language as a means of picking up women who only speak that language
3. His job requires him to know more than 2 languages
4. It is a means of only to impress women and nothing else

If in the occurrence that a Bro knows more than 2 languages, it is the given right for said bro to invite other bros to parties where this language is spoken, having said bro escort and be the official bilingual wingman.

Article 34:
Bro’s cannot make eye contact during a “devil’s threeway” (two dudes.)

Article 35:
A Bro should never say "it's to die for"

Article 36:
A Bro should not wear a scarf without a jacket or coat.

Article 37:
A Bro should not wear an ascot.

Article 38:
A Bro should never use the following words: fantabulous, ginormous & fierce.

Article 39:
A Bro should never wrap a towel around his head after leaving the shower.

Article 40:
A Bro should never "sip" and alcoholic drink through a straw

Article 41:
A Bro should never wear a blouse.

Article 42:
If you are not living with a girl you should not have tampons in your bathroom.

Article 43:
A Bro should not wear crocs.

Article 44:
A Bro should not wear a leotard or do pirouettes.

Article 45:
A Bro should never wear a sweater over his shoulders

Article 46:
A Bro should not eat grapes from the vines

Article 47:
A Bro should never rollerblade

Article 48:
The word cute should not be used other then describing a chick they want to bone

Article 49:
If you compliment a guy on his six-pack, you better be referring to his beer.

Article 50:
A Bro should never, ever wear capri pants.

Article 51:
A Bro should not wear flip flops with a suit.

Article 52:
No Bro should wear a speedo to the beach

Article 53:
A Bro will, whenever possible, provide his Bro with protection. In the event that one Bro finds himself lacking the necessary prophylactic accoutrements needed to complete the act of coitus in a safe and effective manner, he is in the right to expect his Bro will use all measures within or without his means to provide the aforementioned prophylactic in a timely yet discreet fashion. When a Bro signals his need using previously agreed upon code words and/or body signage, it is understood that his Bro will discontinue all present activity [excepting the act of coitus itself [whereby which Bro vows to finish as quickly as possible]], in order to respond with a panoply of options at Bro-in-need's location. A Bro must patronize the most rapid method of transportation available while endeavoring to assist his Bro. In no instance may a two-wheeled bicycle be used* as this is not only humiliating, but also potentially harmful to the perineum - a zone of tissue perilously adjacent to noted sexual organs. In the event that a state, federal, international, or galactic law is breached due to recklessness, unacceptable levels of speed, and/or the hijacking of an airborne vehicle(s), it is understood that the primary Bro will shoulder any associated legal fees or fines. However, any costs or damages incurred from the use of public transportation are the responsibility of the secondary Bro alone as this is an instance of Quid Pro Bro. Upon arrival at the primary Bro's location, the secondary Bro must exercise complete discretion so as not to disrupt the primary Bro's "flow." It is understood that a Bro will engage in all training necessary to achieve this objective, including, at minimum, a five month Ninjitsu curriculum mastering the twin arts of stealth and secrecy.** Once the primary Bro has been supplied with the necessary prophylactic(s), the Brocedure is deemed complete upon exchange of the traditional, though in this case silent, "high five." Tacit in this unspoken ritual is the understanding that said episode will never be spoken of again, unless it's part of an awesome story. * Unless a bicycle is the ONLY form of transportation, as in some Cambodian villages **

Article 54:
No Bro should make a kissing face in a photo.

Article 55:
No Bro should wear girl jeans

Article 56:
A Bro shall never reveal the score of a sporting event to another Bro until that Bro has thrice confirmed it's cool.

Article 57:
A Bro may not speculate on the expected Bro/chick ratio of a party or venue without first disclosing the present-time observed ratio.

Article 58:
If a Bro, for whatever reason, becomes aware of another Bro's girlfriend's birthday and/or anniversary date, he shall endeavor to make that information available to his Bro, regardless of whether he thinks his Bro already knows.

Article 59:
One Bro makes a solo attack.
A Second Bro provides a crutch,
A third Bro rounds out the pack,
But a fourth Bro is one too much

Article 60:
Should a Bro be near to closing with a girl, his Bro shall do anything within his means to ensure the desired outcome, up to and including the seduction of said girls wildly unattractive friend/cousin/sister.

Article 61:
A Bro shall honor thy father and mother

Article 62:
In the event that two Bros acquire the same target, the Bro with the longer dry spell has dibs. Should the dry spells be of equal length, a game of discreet roshambo(rock paper scissors) shall determine the outcome

Article 63:
In a scenario in which two or more Bros are engaged in entertainment of the adult variety, one Bro is forbidden from intentionally or unintentionally touching another Bro in any capacity, including but not limited to; the high-five, the fist bump, or the congratulatory gluteus pat. Winking is also a no no.

Article 64:
A Bro must provide his Bro to a ticket to an event if said event involves the second Bro's favorite sports team in a playoff scenario

Article 65:
A Bro must always reciprocate a round of drinks among Bros with the proviso that no existing wager supercedes this purchase and exchange of spirits.

Article 66:
If a Bro suffers pain due to the permanent dissolution of a relationship with a lady friend, a Bro shall offer nothing more than "that sucks, Bro" and copious quantities of beer. A Bro will also refrain from pejorative commentary - deserved or not - regarding said lady friend for a period of three months, when the requisite BACKSLIDE WINDOW has closed.

Article 67:
Should a Bro pick up a guitar at a party and commence playing , another Bro shall point out that he is a tool

Article 68:
If a Bro be on a hot streak, another Bro will do everything possible to ensure its longevity, even if that includes jeopardizing his own records, the missing of work; or temporary immigration to a foreign country.

Article 69:
No Bro should ever get a pedicure

Article 70:
A Bro should never highlight his hair.

Article 71:
A Bro should not talk to another Bro in the bathroom.

Article 72:
A Bro should never sing show tunes.

Article 73:
A Bro should never eat out of another Bro's hands.

Article 74:
Two men should not share an umbrella.

Article 75:
A Bro should not have "an outfit".

Article 76:
A Bro should not wear a white belt.

Article 77:
A Bro never cries. Unless it’s regarding Article 31.

Article 78:
A Bro should never wiggle out of a pair of pants.

Article 79:
No Bro can hit another Bro in the groin unless victim Bro has broken the Bro code.

Article 80:
A Bro may never seek entertainment from professional women's sports. Unless said entertainment be comedic or physical e.g. gymnastics, beach volleyball

Article 81:
What happens between bros stay between bros...
also known as the what happens in vegas stays in vegas rule and the what happens on tour stays on tour rule

Article 82:
If a Bro catches another Bro in plagiarism - albeit awesome plagiarism - a Bro shall be required to ask the Bro to cite his source.

Article 83:
A Bro can not cock-block another Bro UNLESS sleeping with said girl would break a Bro code.

Article 84:
Love thy neigh-Bro

Article 85:
No bros night out can start with "the wife put out some cheese" and end "with everyone at home by eleven, booya."

Article 86:
If said bros is lost to a relationship, they must void all rights to use the bros code for any purpose and are rightfully subjected to any and all humorous ploys made to said post-bros by previous bros.

Article 87:
A Bro shall at all times say 'Yes'.

Article 88:
Any bros who notice a fellow bros passed out at any social gathering due to drug or alcohol consumption, is obligated to take humiliating photo's and/or videos of the passed out bros; unless said bros has consumed a whiskey, rum, scotch or other hard liquor to an excess of a ratio of: once ounce:3kg of body mass (7lbs imperial)

Article 89:
"A Bro may never pursue the mom of another Bro." Be it here resolved that at no point is it permissible for one Bro to engage in carnal delicacies with another Bro's mother. It is, however, allowed and encouraged for one Bro to graphically suggest to a Bro the athletic feats, animalia, and/or machinery utilized during a fictional encounter with his mom. [[NOTA BENE: It is customary for a Bro to avoid such Brocularity if his Bro's mom is a 9 or better, for fear of Oedipal inducement.]] Should a Bro discover his Bro is in fact adopted, he is free to pursue his Bro's adoptive mother, but only after first corroborating non-biological parentage through notarized birth certificates, hospital records, or comparative dioxyribonucleic acid gel electrophoresis, whichever is easiest. Since the adopted Bro cannot legitimately claim to have shared a canal with his Bro, ARTICLE 89 expressly prohibits the adopted Bro from invoking the Sloppy Second clause in any related filings with the International Court of Bros. Though the mom of a Bro is always off limits, the step-mom of a Bro is allowed if she initiates it and/or is wearing at least one article of leopard print clothing. If she looks good in it.

Article 90:
No bros should know any fellow bros weight for any reason. Previous bros code stipulation should only have an assumed weight. If the assumed weight is on the turning point of humility and peace, humility over-rides

Article 91:
When bros are up for the same promotion/job position and are subjected to interviews, bros in a prior interview must alert bros of any and all trick questions they can remember. This ensures all bros get an equal chance at the position/title because it is well known fact that the bros performing the interview wants to get the process over as quick as possible and the only way for a fair chance is to make all subsequent bros seem better.

Article 92:
When a bros introduces a fellow bros to their hot female friend, the introducer has the rights to the girl. The introduced bros can only attempt to get the girl if the introducer bros gives his consent.

Article 93:
If any bros acts out of line and defies any bros code during a multiple bros conversation with any number of girls, the other bros have the right to tell any humiliating stories and facts about said bros for the purpose of ruining said bros chances with the girl(s).

Article 94:
Should a Bro (1st, 2nd or 3rd) be hooking up with an unattractive woman, the Bro that notices this must do all in their power to stop said Bro from closing the deal, unless they are helping another Bro with Article 60.

Article 95:
Any girl passing out in a non-bedroom designated area of a dwelling occupied by more than one bros is not up for grabs under any circumstances. Additionally, said girl can be subjected to humiliating photos as long as other bros are alerted to its undertaking

Regards,
JLY

19th Feb 2009

2009-02-19T09:38:00.002+08:00

Today's blog will be about changes

where have i come from , and what have I become.

you see, I was not always this awesome.

During my primary school days, I was quite the introvert.
often taking pleasure in solitary activities such as reading and writing.

Somehow I came out of my shell. although I still have a stronng dislike for crowds
( Thus I NEVER truely enjoy clubbing)

ok , I am now an easy going introvert.

So how does an Introvert became awesome (I'll explain awesome later)

Friends
social pressures
rebellious streaks
Love

Firstly - friends people you hang around with at a certain period of time can change your thinking alot.
You see , I came from a Bad school. Shu qun Sec.
Back then , it was a true blue gangster school.
Nerds get bullied , mocked , laughed at.

My first year in Shuqun sec was a nightmare.
I was picked on, mocked.
till I had my very first fight.
and boy was i awesome.
In short , after my first victory.
I had six more fights in the same day.
gosh, my face was swollen and puffed.
Some from the injuries i had ,
others from the awesomeness swelling inside.

Looking back , I was pressured into those fights
and as much as i enjoy them.
It was not me.
a part of me died that day ( that leads us to social Pressure)

I wanted everyone to accept me. to like me, to respect me.
so , i adapted the bad boy tactics.

I smoke , I drink , I fought , I broke some laws , I was only 14
social pressure , really makes the little boy in me cry

side track to OCBC days.
I wore a shirt , crisps pants , a nice tie. engaged in e-mails wars
social pressure , makes the little boy in me crazy

To days in Quebec,
working hard , drinking harder, telling lame jokes .
social pressure killed the small boy in me ...

If not for social pressure , to gain acceptances
would I even talk to some of them ?
would I even drink with some of them ?
Would I even sleep with some of them ?
(Yes , I'm very easy going)

rebellious streaks
There was a time I just can't take No for an answer.
The more No you said , the more yes i wanna do

forbidden fruit tasted better ..

They said I should drive . I refuse to learn
They said I would fall . I always climb back up
They said I'll die , I'll live forever

Love -
I had a major crush ( Salute ) on Yifan years ago
Most of my Gfs hates hers
but she taught me much.

From her I learn about Tragic comedy
I learn more about expressing myself

but mostly , I learn how to laugh , really laugh when i was crying inside.

Kelly - My longest GF

Taught me that the hardworking will win the genius.

actually , if i had list down all my crushes and Lovers , it's going to be too long
( I hate to think back about failed relationships)

The point is - We learn about the mistakes we made. We move on to make another mistake. we move and learn. In all relationships, we learn something from each other. Self discoveries are made.

a few things I had knew and I'm happy to confirm it again.

in all my 27 years in this world.

I'm a gentleman
I'm a sinner
I'm a dog lover
I'm a flirt

I am awesome.

Awe is an emotion comparable to wonder^[1] but less joyous, and more fearful or respectful. A person may feel wonder or joy while seeing a large rainbow, but typically a person does not feel in awe of a rainbow. In general awe is directed at objects considered to be more powerful than the subject.

Awe is a mixture between surprise and fear .

There you go , a little more understanding of me.

Jeffrey Lewis Yang

16th feb 2009

2009-02-16T08:49:00.003+08:00

Back to work.

This is how my weekend goes.

Friday night- wanted to leave work early, but was caught to seat in a stupid meeting. lasted all the way till 7pm.
went to West mall trying to get Sunflowers. No stock.
florist got a bloody long queue. opt for Lilies instead.

got the Monchichi for her as well.

Sat - woke up very late , bout 3pm. tried to cook dinner.
Mess it all up . too salty.
ordered pizza instead.

Sunday- Watch Sitcom almost the whole day.

and that brings us back to today.

where most likely, I sit in the office, pretend to be busy while TCSS with Bear and BS.
Now , what should i have for lunch ?

Feeling very sleepy,
Jeffrey Lewis Yang

13th feb 2009

2009-02-13T16:28:00.001+08:00

It's been many years since i first chance this poem.
Still bring a tear to my eyes.
Honor the Light Brigade

The Charge of the Light Brigade

by Alfred Tennyson.

Half a league, half a league,
Half a league onward,
All in the valley of Death
Rode the six hundred.
"Forward the Light Brigade!
Charge for the guns!" he said.
Into the valley of Death
Rode the six hundred.

Forward, the Light Brigade!"
Was there a man dismay'd?
Not tho' the soldier knew
Some one had blunder'd.
Theirs not to make reply,
Theirs not to reason why,
Theirs but to do and die.
Into the valley of Death
Rode the six hundred.

Cannon to right of them,
Cannon to left of them,
Cannon in front of them
Volley'd and thunder'd;
Storm'd at with shot and shell,
Boldly they rode and well,
Into the jaws of Death,
Into the mouth of hell
Rode the six hundred.

Flash'd all their sabres bare,
Flash'd as they turn'd in air
Sabring the gunners there,
Charging an army, while
All the world wonder'd.
Plunged in the battery-smoke
Right thro' the line they broke;
Cossack and Russian
Reel'd from the sabre-stroke
Shatter'd and sunder'd.
Then they rode back, but not,
Not the six hundred.

Cannon to right of them,
Cannon to left of them,
Cannon behind them
Volley'd and thunder'd;
Storm'd at with shot and shell,
While horse and hero fell,
They that had fought so well
Came thro' the jaws of Death,
Back from the mouth of hell,
All that was left of them,
Left of six hundred.

When can their glory fade?
O the wild charge they made!
All the world wonder'd.
Honor the charge they made!
Honor the Light Brigade,
Noble six hundred!

13th Feb 2009

2009-02-13T13:56:00.002+08:00

It's one more day till Valentine's day.
Most florist are smiling their way to the bank.

I dun like to out doing myself every Valentine days.
just to prove I love or care about someone.

It's not a once a year thingy.

It's like Xmas , Birthdays , Valentine , Anniversary and suchs

There's a short story ..

There was a little town. besiege by a strong evil demon
The demon demands the townsman to Kill an infant in his honor and the demon will let them live.
The town refuse to kill the baby and was all slaughtered in the end.

Moral of the story - depends how you look at it
in the end , everyone was killed , including the baby, so would it be better to kill the baby and save everyone esle ? No

Reason - Evil works this way , you give in a bit at first , then you have to give in more. evil berets evil.

You gave in one step , and slowly, you had totally give up on your beliefs.

It's better to die for your beliefs then to live without hope.
better a dead lion then a live dog.
Die on your feet then live on your knees.

Tired,
JLY

09 Feb 2009

2009-02-09T10:16:00.002+08:00

The Ranting of the unstable mind.

First of all, I think I'm an Idiot.(At times)
I am really fickle minded. I want this , I want that.
I keep changing my decision.
I am like Water. I am really very easy going (At times)
Put me in a circle , I'll be circle
Put me in a square , I'll be Square

In my mind
I feel heavy
Feels like giving up
I hate responsibility

I wanna be in a place of four session
I long for freedom. The ability to voice my thoughts. The ability to experiences life.

I just wanna Live life.
to taste life. travel, explore

I wanna live forever. Cut short my destiny and extend it forever...
If not , make my mark in this world

I've made plenty of mistakes in the past
too much wine and too much songs
wasted my youth on nothing

Wasted my youth. This is my regret.
My mistake. My fault.My life.

But How could I live with it ?
When i know so much about the outside world... I can only dream ...

How can I be contend with what i have?
When I know it's not real.
I'm wasting my timing here.

Do I really wanna be just like this ?
Can i don't have a normal Singaporean life ?
Must I study , work , marry , HDB , have kids , send kids study and watch the process goes on and on ?

I am blessed with a cursed Body.
Blessed with a twisted mind
I got a sense of humor.

What achievement Had I done ?
What talents can i speak of ?
What honor did I earn ?
What friendship had I Bonded ?
What chance was given to me ?
What a waste I am....

Deep down, I've got the urge to break down and cry
But what's the use ? It's all be just the same.

If you know me, You'll remember how much I wanna live forever.
Nowadays, perhaps, it's a good day to die.
the sweet embrace of death ...

Perhaps , perhaps

Perhaps I'm just tired and I'll be fine after a good rest.

I don't think It's Right,
JLY

09 Feb 2008

2009-02-09T09:19:00.002+08:00

Monday ... Back to office.

Had a relatively Boring Weekend.

Sat- Met up with Yong Sheng , Brought an Insurance Package. Spent the whole day Playing computer game till 3am.

the sad part. It was not World of Warcraft.(I've got a sad reason behind)

Sunday - Woken up early. Watch the serial Comedy "How I Met your mother"
from 9am till 10pm. almost complete session 2.

Love that show.

Had many thoughts lately ... will update those rants soon

till later,
JLY

06 Feb 2009

2009-02-06T10:19:00.002+08:00

I am Evil , for believing in what I do
I am Evil , For not agreeing with you
I'm in the white and you're in the black
I am things that your petty soul lacks

I am in the right and you are in the wrong
That's why you are weak and why I'm strong
I'll have the last laugh and you'll start to cry
I'll live Forever but someday you'll die ...

I am Evil because I'm not like you
I rather be Evil , Then to live like a fool
I am the Hammer, you are the nail
I succeeded in things that you fail

I am Evil, True to the end
Deep down you know , My trusting friend
I'm not Joking ,Don't be misunderstood
Jeffrey Lewis , Is up to no good ... Muwahaha

Evil has a Name,
Jeffrey Lewis Yang

5th Feb 2009

2009-02-05T13:29:00.001+08:00

This is one sick yet a little funny clip.

And I will not use it .

If The Good Dies Young, I'll Live Forever,
Jeffrey Lewis Yang

4th Feb 2009

2009-02-04T14:41:00.003+08:00

I was told to remain cheerful and happy today.

so, I intend to slack my way thru work .

was surfing the net and learn about the Tiananmen Square protests of 1989

I was Shocked .. and sadden
Touched by their courage as well.

The Unknown Rebel — This famous photo, taken on 5 June 1989 by photographer Jeff Widener, depicts an unknown man halting the PLA's advancing tanks near Tiananmen Square.

Here's what happen on that faithful day.

The protests were sparked by the death of pro-market and pro-democracy official, Hu Yaobang, whom protesters wanted to mourn.
4th of June
100,000 people on the Tiananmen square. Army came in .. case them out , by force.
run over by tanks , shot by bullets. crackdown begins

"Meanwhile, many students apparently were shouting, "Why are you killing us?" Around four or five the following morning, June 4, Charlie Cole reports to have seen tanks smashing into the square, crushing vehicles and people with their tank treads.[15] By 5:40 a.m. June 4, the Square had been cleared."

"Eyewitness reporter Charlie Cole also saw Chinese soldiers firing AK-47's into the crowd, killing and wounding many that night.[15] Students who sought refuge in buses were pulled out by groups of soldiers and beaten with heavy sticks. Even students attempting to leave the square were beset by soldiers and beaten".

Just to Remember,
JLY

3 feb 2009

2009-02-03T17:01:00.002+08:00

Third post today.

tried my luck at poetry again( since Vday is coming)

In a dream of far ago…
A maiden flew down, and stole my soul
She said she came from high above,
To bless me such a twisted curse
I ‘ll be doomed to find the perfect pleasure
Hunting around for the mystical treasure
I had to find the fair maiden’s kiss
Only then could I feel bliss.
I tried to find her, to break the curse
“I’ll get my soul back “I shouted to above
I Hunted for her then,
And I hunted for her still
I’m hunting you now
As I always will

Hungry like the wolf,
JLY

3 Feb 2009

2009-02-03T12:46:00.003+08:00

While working , I realized i had finally found the words for the goat eye ball i had in China.

Sotong plus ladyfingers.

Chewy and very soggy.

Why did I Think of that suddenly ?
JLY

03 Feb 2009

2009-02-03T09:39:00.002+08:00

Yesterday was a Drag.
Boring work in the office
No TCSS kaki around.
Feeling very tired and sleepy
Cab home to sleep.
LOL.

But dunno why , Still feeling quite weak.
Think I could be down with something.
Haiz.

Had a weird dream last night.
dream that I was in Miss Swan's Office.
Saw Rachael there ...
But the Location is in Thailand.
So Rachael bring me out to this run out shooping mall.
And ... I woke up ..

Dreaming a dream
Jeffrey The Giraffe ?

2rd feb 2009

2009-02-02T09:11:00.010+08:00

Monday...

Back to office again. Feeling very tired and sleepy
yawn.. Got half a mind to run home sleep.

weekend was quite simple.

Sat - work till 1 plus , traveled to orchard . brought lunch , cab home.

Sun - Watch the HIMYM for the whole afternoon. Went out for dinner with Bear and Jason.(Bear's Birthday).Jason brought a 1kg ice cream cake. Supposed to be quite a few folks, but in the end. only the four of us. ( Marc and Xiuli tua us ...) Heard Bella swan was coming too , but ... )

Anyways , salted egg Crab is GOOD !!!

Attached are photos of the celebration

Jason and bear

Wifey and Bear

Crazy jason and Crazy Bear

Me and Wifey

Bear's 1kg Ice cream Cake

Chopping the cake (Look what is she holding)

Rabid bear (Done by Jason)

Me and wifey with the Bday Girl

Later~
JLY

1st Feb 2009

2009-02-01T09:52:00.014+08:00

It's Bear's Birthday . So a Greeting to her.

Anyways, There's the photos from the CNY Trip.

ME after getting my hair straighten

On Jade Dragon Snow Mountain

>
at Blue moon Valley (Lijiang)

White face

Tea House of Kunming

In a Lan Shop in Kunming. Dog using computer. So Cute

Me and Wifey

Devil / Hehe

Me , wifey , Rou yan

Till next time ,
JLY

30th January 2009

2009-01-30T09:41:00.002+08:00

I'm Back !!

This is my adventures in China.
Photos will be post later.

Day 01 - 17th january

Reached Kunming in the morning. Freezing. Temperature is at 1.degree.
Gotten 3 Highs.
1- Lack of sleep and too cold
2- Straighten my hair
3- Steak @ low prices

Day 02 - 18th January
Flew over to Lijiang. Freaking Cold. minus 3.degree.
Pickup and hitchhiker from Beijing.
Travel with her to Jade dragon mountain. Climb to almost the submit.
used up 3 bottles of oxygen.
Went back to 'Old city' for sight seeing and shopping.

Day 03 - 19th January

Went to see ' Blue Moon Valley"
Horse riding across the wetlands.
Cold wind blowing , cranes and wild birds flying. almost endless plains to run
Almost did not wanna come back.
till....
Nearly fall when the stupid horse got excited and start to run.
Went back to hotel freaking tired.

Day 04 - 20th January

Went back to 'old town"
Had my first sweet strawberry.
By the way . "old city" is a tourist trap.
Almost everything is more expensive then Singapore.
exp - 01 can of coke cost $SDG 3.
A decent meal cost bout $60 sgd.
Went back hotel slack.

Day 05 - 21th January

Flew back kunming.
Went to green lake. feed sea gulls.
there is like thousands of them.

Day 06- 22th January
Tried to get online.
yet was killed by the lag.
cannot blog. lucky still got msn.

Day 07 - 23th January.
Went KTV with some friend.
DID NO GET DRUNK. LOL

Can't remember what esle i did.
Oh yeah . CNY there was kinda boring . most shops are close and when night falls.
It became a warzone. fire works every where . no stop till bout 5am.
Flew 10 kong min lantern up in the air.

oh ya, before i left for kunming , i saw twinne @ T3 . called her , but no response.

Till later,
JLY.

P.S - No longer FG , cos i've lost 6 kgs !!

16th Jan 2009

2009-01-16T20:35:00.002+08:00

Well , this it it.
off to pack and moving out.
Still got no winter gear.
only got a pair of thick sock ( Thanks Twinnie)
A grey scarf
and a long john.

I will be freezing my butt off for the next ten days.
But What the hell.

Will try to get online as much as possible.

Spend an afternoon watching How I made your mother.
Awesome show .

So, To my Readers. If there's any left.
Happy Chinese new day.

I'll miss you.
Ya, it's you.
believe it

Howling alone, Anyone wanna join me ?
Yang Tjun Yu

16th Jan 2009

2009-01-16T10:05:00.002+08:00

Tonight will be my flight to Kunming ,china
The weather there seems cold and i still have no winter wear.
It's gonna be ten days of coldness.

Everything, I get on the holiday mood,
These song comes in my head.

All my bags are packed, I'm ready to go
I'm standin' here outside your door
I hate to wake you up to say goodbye

But the dawn is breakin', it's early morn
The taxi's waitin', he's blowin' his horn
Already I'm so lonesome I could die

So kiss me and smile for me
Tell me that you'll wait for me
Hold me like you'll never let me go

'Cause I'm leaving on a jet plane
I don't know when I'll be back again
Oh, babe, I hate to go

There's so many times I've let you down
So many times I've played around
I'll tell you now, they don't mean a thing

Every place I go, I think of you
Every song I sing, I sing for you
When I come back I'll wear your wedding ring

So kiss me and smile for me
Tell me that you'll wait for me
Hold me like you'll never let me go

'Cause I'm leaving on a jet plane
I don't know when I'll be back again
Oh, babe, I hate to go

Now the time has come to leave you
One more time, oh, let me kiss you
And close your eyes and I'll be on my way

Dream about the days to come
When I won't have to leave alone
About the times that I won't have to say ...

Oh, kiss me and smile for me
Tell me that you'll wait for me
Hold me like you'll never let me go

'Cause I'm leaving on a jet plane
I don't know when I'll be back again
Oh, babe, I hate to go

And I'm leaving on a jet plane
I don't know when I'll be back again
Oh, babe, I hate to go

But I'm leaving on a jet plane
(Ah ah ah ah)
Leaving on a jet plane
(Ah ah ah ah)
Leaving on a jet plane

BTW - Anyone knows why rabbit sleep with eyes open ?

Up up and away ~
Jeffrey Lewis Yang

2009-01-15T13:07:00.002+08:00

This photo brings back lots of memories. How young and foolish we were.
The songs we sung. The Girls we chased. The fights we gotten our self in.

Too bad most of us drifted apart.

If I could just stop hating you , I'll feel sorry for us instead

Just for laughs

15th January 2009

2009-01-15T09:37:00.002+08:00

Well , for starters.

Today seems to be a great day for me.
Holiday mood kicks in. Late for work bout 1hr plus.
Overslept at home and too engrossed with my book in the bus.
Overshot at least 7 stops.
Still have the very bo chup feeling.

Last day. Had the weirdest thought as well as the funniest dream.

My thoughts.

What if all things are meant to be.
Should I even try for anything at all .
I know deep down inside, I should be contend.
I have gotten married, Gotten a good job. Have a few looney friends.
But somehow I craved for more.
Crave for freedom . Crave for days of being wild
craved for much more.

My dreams,

Dream that I had a Child. a son.
Dream of a childhood crush.
Dream of shooting an arrow into an stranger's throat.

Glitch in the brain,
Jeffrey lewis Yang

14 January 2009

2009-01-14T15:05:00.003+08:00

It's a slow day in the office.
Starting to feel my holiday mood

Stuck in office , feeling every second goes by
it's a hell with fluorescence lighting
gotten to know a new friend. Bella Swan
interestingly, another dog lover.
Must be another Hao Ren

Anyway, Can't seems to find book three and four of twilight

And I've done reading The Lies of Locke Lomora.

Laugh and the world laugh with you,
Cry and the world still laugh.
But they're laughing at you.

Gentlemen Bastard.
It fits me.
like a glove
like another mask

Not a Giraffe,
JLY

13th January 2009

2009-01-13T13:25:00.002+08:00

A song i like
Sun Yan Zi - 我怀念的

我问为什么

那女孩传简讯给我

而你为什么

不解释低着头沉默

我该相信你很爱我

不愿意敷衍我

还是明白

你已不想挽回什么

想问为什么

我不再是你的快乐

可是为什么

却苦笑说我都懂了

自尊常常将人拖着

把爱都走曲折

假装了解是怕

真相太赤裸裸

狼狈比失去难受

我怀念的是无话不说

我怀念的是一起作梦

我怀念的是争吵以后

还是想要爱你的冲动

我记得那年生日

也记得那一首歌

记得那片星空

最紧的右手

最暖的胸口

谁记得

谁忘了

我怀念的是无言感动

我怀念的是绝对炽热

我怀念的是你很激动

求我原谅抱得我都痛

我记得你在背后

也记得我颤抖着

记得感觉汹涌

最美的烟火

最长的相拥

谁爱得太自由

谁过头太远了

谁要走我的心

谁忘了那就是承诺

谁自顾自地走

谁忘了看着我

谁让爱变沉重

谁忘了要给你温柔

我放手

我让座

假洒脱

谁懂我多么不舍得

太爱了

所以我

没有哭

没有说

Just to share.
Jeffrey Yang